As we were packing up our things in preparation for moving I came across many things I didn’t even remember having. One of the most notable items was the last birthday card I gave my dad. He turned 59 March 29th, 2008. It was just a little over 4 months prior to his death.
I wrote a page of words on the inside of the card, but a few caught my attention above the others. I wrote:
I hate to see you hurting and unable to do the things you really want to be doing, but I’m amazed at your attitude and morale. You’re teaching me to look beyond myself and see situations in a bigger light.
What a way to leave this world; showing people how to live in the midst of less than perfect circumstances.
A few weeks ago Pastor Brown shared a sermon that spoke to me especially. He talked about how people are always wondering and asking things like “Why did God let that happen?” When tragedy strikes it seems like a major part of dealing with it is trying to understand why something so awful could happen. Christians agree that ultimately, bad things happen because of the Fall of Adam and Eve. But seriously, when my family and I were going through the worst part of grieving I wasn’t thinking about the Fall, I was asking God “Why?”
I have asked that very question over and over again in the past three years and I have yet to come up with an answer that I am at rest with except for this thought, which also happened to be, essentially, Pastor’s answer in his sermon: maybe one reason God allows some heartache into our lives is to help loosen our grip, so to speak, on this temporary, earthly life and help us to become more heavenly-minded.
I think it’s a little more complicated than that, but one thing I am absolutely aware of is that losing my dad has definitely “loosened the grip” of this fleeting life for me. I long for the day I enter into Heaven and out of this broken world.
Deep calls unto deep.
God has set eternity in our hearts. When the tough realities of life break our hearts, there’s the proof; it wasn’t meant to be like this. We were not created for brokenness, but wholeness. We were not created to live just a few years, but rather forever.
What a day of rejoicing that will be…